Finally realise

Finally i am back to this pity webby... as usually i had never had the determination to maintain something like a dairy, blog, etc etc.... I never had the determination for such nice hobby where i can turn back in times and read wat i had wrote and laugh it all out about wat i had post previously, and i do believe itz not only me ya....

So much so much things had happened, finally here's something more about the writer after so many post. Initially this webby was created to write about my romance things like he show 50 First Date where the Female cast had an illness of only a memory of 24 hours and wakes up the next day and live everyday like yesterday, and the male cast actually took the effort of recovering her memory everyday the 1st thing in the morning by writing her a diary. But it was not carried out here, cause reality is reality... stress, time commitment, works, family etc etc comes in where it wun happens in the movies ya... hahaa might seems like an excuses, but maybe though... another reason is the webby i really feel comfortable with the settings i had created and hope to gives ppl the same feeling visiting my blog, hence i also tried to post stuff interesting for visitors to take some time of the busy work and read something in front of the computer instead of statistic and data in an excel file ya.

Seriously so much things haf had happened around me, the sudden thot of going studies, the sudden lazy young lad had turn hardworkin old man, the family most concerning young boy became the family most disconcern brother and son..... I slowly realise i had been losing my cool so so frequent in my family especially towards my mother and i dunno why, although i knew itz wrong to do it and regret it everytime the fight ends, i will do it again the next day AGAIN~!!! And the worst thing is in order not to have fights wif her i avoid her, go works early, come home late.... i do wan to company them but there is this invisible stress just by staying at home, i dunno why as a matter of fact i misses them very much... hahaaa sounded so "gu niang" but thinking back i think i know why....

Years back then, or rather 2 years back i nearly lost my father that suffers from heart attk. I knew the feeling of losting someone i care, although that time i din showed any anxiety nothing at all cause i was born this way, my expression and actions is never easy to guess, but the feeling inside me was damn lousy, then i slowly recover from the trauma and i found another love that i had to undergo the same shit again, the feelings is never good, itz sour until no words can describe... i want her to feel that she is normal after the operation, the more i tried the more i make her feels so miserable, she cares so much about her scar, she cares so much about how i treats her, she doesn't wan to drag me down, so much so much.... sub concious in me had created a barrier between us, i wanted her to be independant so as she wun be so fragile like before, who knows i might be the one leaving eariler then her ?? And her family is overshowering her with their care and concern that sometimes is doin her harm instead of helping her,When she needed me i will always be by her, blades to her house when i did wrong, apologise to her even when it an misunderstanding.... it may seems nothing but a man of an ego bigger then anything it means a lot.... a lot of time although i get mad at something i will still think of her, several times in fact....

We had a fight at her house.... suddenly she went to her friend house play mj.... and i turn up in her friend house...

We plan to go play bball, suddenly she disappeared.... lost all concentration and went to her house company her...

a lot a lot....

After her operation i did selfishly wan to held her at my home for long, as her house was always empty and her meal are very horribly unhealthy to some extends, and i believe my house will be a better place for her to recuperate... but i did notice my mother was brainwashing her every now and then which i can sense her irritation towards that, maybe thats the reason my relationship turns a bit sour with my mum... although i know mother means well, but i myself is rejecting the stuffs i did expect her to accept those stuffs... hence no choice i kept them away as much as i could....

After watching the show i saw the myth of cheating death, the feeling was like why not make a try... although its seems foolish but there are also example of ppl that nothing bad had happen after they cheated death, there are chances although the cycle thing might juz turns to me, but there are chances too... if it realli is the case i realli realli dun mind her trying cheating her death and see wat happen, i can be extra careful when she begins the ritual and maybe that sloves all nonsense happening ya.... but afterall its a myth, i do hope everything turns out well as it is causing her miserly and causing me heartache.... But dun worry the world is fair, as long as there is the will there will be an alternative.... as long as she dun gives up... i wun gives up... thats my stands right now... hope she understand and fight strong!!

So much yet so little

Hmm... right now i feel the Subject Head/Title is a killer to me, i never haf a real catchy heading afterall.. but... but.... who cares hahaaaa.... So much wanting to blog but ended up so little time and ability to blog them up... aikzZz

Suppose not to be blogging this but i did it anyway, well lastest news from me is that my current working company is going to.. ... ..... well they called it 分家 hahaaa yes they are setting up a new company LC&T technology (My boss initial is LCT) lolzZzz and they phrases it so0o0 nice that my current company MCE will be fully supporting the new company and he shall haf the 1st priority of the staff he wants, from my best understanding:

-New company bringing over 25% current staff only
-The benefits etc are not tied down yet and wasn't annouced so far
- Those din went over will be allocated other works?!?!?!?! (Personally feels it goin to be oversea)
-No compensatation because they din retrench you (Smart ass!!)
-Racist on selection of worker, so far i did not see any of the Muslim staff got interviewed to the new company...(Although i agree that they did it right this time, but well they are quite poor thing this time round and as a s'porean we shld stand together at such crisis right~!! Yeah crapz.. hahaa)

This had created a paranoid tension among the staff here, well i cant blame them exactly but i got quite piss off at some extent, no point affecting the emotion as the truth is still a question mark but they are making others people feel as paranoid, i felt that they already very worried le instead of making them feel better no point rubbing salt to the wounds le right?? lolzZz the only worries is our pregnant lady, she is going to add one more family member to her juz at the right moment where they will execute the 分家行动... well hope for the best for all frendz here ba~!!! I am not very affected as i got a job reservation le, so the shittiest thing were to happen is the new job suddenly decline the offer la then i will eat grass for the period i find my new job hahaaaa...

Well something i had learnt yesterday, just feel so familar but i still wan to share~!!! I've heard of the poor get poorer and only the rich get richer, but ytd was the enhance version of it, the poor are working for the rich to get richer.... hahaaa yes i am refering to monetary terms onli, the people poor in cash usually will feel less paranoid then those rich ppl ba, USUALLY is used here because ppl often selective blinds themselves of "usually", "maybe", "probably" and
substitute them wif a more definate verbs and start arguing that "not ALL rich ppl are paranoid de ma" had been happening and heard or even saw at some forums, public chat etc.. Pls ppl stop the selective reading, selective listening, selective understanding hahaa..


Many things had been evolving, and i haf aged~!! YES finally you hear me admitting i getting old~!!! Been telling elder ppl age are juz numbers but now i feel so old waahahaaa... totally din went clubbing and drinking for like near 1 year!!! amazing but true!!! hahaaa the worst thing is i got addicted to old man stuff like fishing playing mj, slping late was nv a problem for me but now i start to sleep late and wake up even later~!!! no more hectic timing of like 4 hour slp!!! shit~!!! something is wrong hahaaa then then now still studying somemore haiZzz... tahan tahan 3 years is all it takes for this old man

Quotes for my fellow colleagues reading this:

Worrying is like a rocking chair. It’s something to do, but it won’t get you anywhere.

STOP WORRYING !!

LADIES FOLLOWING MIGHT BE OFFENSIVE... PLS TURN OFF THE PAGE IF YOU... YES YOU LADIES FIND IT HURTING.... BUT IT IS THE TRUTH... FACE IT.... WAHAHAAAA~!!!

Something so meaningful

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?

'DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?

'DAD: 'That's none of your business.Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour..'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious,'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to
buy a silly toyor some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed.Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish
frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.

How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think:Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he reallydidn't ask for money very often.

The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.'

No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man.

'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you.Here's the $25 you asked for.

'The little boy sat straight up, smiling.'Oh, thank you daddy!' He yelled.

Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

Because I didn't have enough,but now I do,' the little boy replied.'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time?Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.

'The father was crushed.He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life.We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some timewith those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.Do remember to share that $50 worth ofyour time with someone you love.If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working forcould easily replace us in a matter of hours.But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.Make time for living while you're still breathing.

命中注定我爱你

阮经天 饰 纪存希　
陈乔恩 饰 陈欣怡
陈楚河 饰 Dylan　　
白歆惠 饰 Anna

Man proposes, God disposes Xin Yi,
She made a mistake
Not only did she enter the wrong room,
She did it with the wrong guy.
Worse still, she...Won the wrong prize
She... got pregnant

Simply got addicted by the new taiwan drama top hits "命中注定我爱你" that is proudly sponser by Mont Blanc and 3M stick on pad. Itz about a "stick on girl" (便利贴女孩) and a company boss.... I simply like the few quotes by the drama...

第一次是偶然
第二次是必然
第三次是命中注定